Enchanted-

2009-05-16T14:15:00.004+08:00

Quick update, my relatives are coming over and I wanna get out of the house ASAP.

Overslept today, didn't go for Cheena remedial. -.-

Went for Phys and Chem remedial instead.

Talked w Mr Aliff aft remedial, he wanted to persuade me to change to Combined Sci.

Anw, I've alr made up my mind that I wna drop.

So yeah. :/

Will update more, probably next time. Gah. Bye, must rush. -.-

Can't forget to breathe slow, count from 1 to 10 with my eyes closed.

2009-05-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling slightly hyper today. Must be because of the songs Sara sent me today. WHEEE~

Screwed up my gradient for Phys SPA today. -.-

I totally forgot about the y=mx+c formulae! D: Damnit. -.-

But i managed to get the conclusion correct, though. :D

Not sure about the key sources of errors, but I think I probably got it correct ba. :/

Aft Phys SPA, went to Cheena remedial.

Compo intensive, again. Gah. -.-

I think I'm gonna go crazy from writing so much compos. Zz.

But at least my results have improved tremendously. ;3

So it was kinda worth the pain and sacrifice. Hee. :D

Went music room aft Cheena.

Waited for Kimmy to finish her O's Music MYE paper with Sara,

Then walked over to Macs.

I ordered one of the last few servings of Milo Mcflurry, I think. ;3

So they were reduced to having Oreo Mcflurry instead. Hee. :D

I feel so proud of myself. -smirks-

Talked and crapped, as usual in Macs.

Then went home at around 5plus. O: Close to 6.

Bathed, had dinner, did a bit of revision for my sec3 work, and blogged.

'kayes, I'm off to Facebook again. :D Bye, penguins! <3

2009-05-13T22:25:00.005+08:00

57.3/100

That's the fucking lowest score I ever scored for English in my entire 16 years of life. -'-

Cried in class today 'cause I failed my English paper1. But i passed my English paper2, though. Although I didn't get the marks I was aiming for .. Scored 33/50, but I was actually aiming for 35-37/50. Screw the marker (I think AK marked it) who marked my English paper 1, and made me fail my paper 1 for the first time in my 10 years of education. She seriously made me feel like shiet for the rest of the day. Fuck! At least crapping around with Sara and Kimmy at Macs aft Cheena remedial made me feel better. Lol. Made plans to go WWW with Sara, Kimmy, Eve. Perhaps Sara'd be asking more people to come, but, not confirmed yet. O:

I bet that I can kiss my hopes of getting my mom to take me on a shopping spree for new clothes during the June holidays goodbye. Agh. Did horribly for most of my subjects during MYE. Screw. I guess Mdm Low was right when she predicted that many students probably will not take MYE seriously, 'cause they'll only start gearing up for Prelims during the June holidays. Her reason is : students will associate Prelims with their performance during O's, but not link MYE to their Prelims and O's. I don't know how true this is for other pupils, but it definitely is true for some 4C students. -shrugs- As what QP said, "Shit! If only I knew that MYE was set to O's standard, I'd have studied harder," Lol. I agree with her. I initially thought that MYE was set to school standard, with a few questions from the O's to get students warmed up. -.-

Anw, gonna go sleep now. Still feeling emo over my Eng results. Screwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

[/edit] Oh yeah, tmrw's Physics SPA2. -.- OH, SCREW! I hate 2009, seriously. It's so freaking screwed up. -.-

2009-05-12T16:54:00.006+08:00

I love Carrie Underwood. :D I'm listening to I Just Can't Live A Lie and I Told You So on repeat by her. O:

Today, lessons went on as usual, I'm still in holiday mood. D: I should really buck up for my upcoming O's. Yet, I'm damnably lazy and I still keep procrasinating. :/

Anw, today during Cheena today, results were released. I passed for both Paper 1 & 2, yayness. :D And I'm like, one of the 40% in the whole level that passed for Cheena Paper2. O: Oh wow. Didn't realise that my Cheena had improved so much. :x But I'm afraid that my English wouldn't be up to my expectations. I swear, I'll probably cry in class if my English gets below 60 to 65. My standard's been rolling downhill since like, beginning of Sec3. T-T

And and and, I've just finished writing my letter of appeal to change from pure sciences to combined sciences. Now all I havfta do is to let my parents sign. Hopefully they'll sign willingly and don't put up a fight .. -hopes fervently-

[/edit] ohhhhh shietttttttttttttttt! I lost my speech! D: Ms Sultanah's gonna kill me. T-T

Do you still remember what day today was supposed to be?

Missing you seems to be the last thing that should be on my mind

....

Yet I just can't help it.

I'm sorry

I'm just confused .. and in a dilemma.

2009-05-11T18:52:00.004+08:00

Happy belated Mothers' Day to all Mummies out there! :D

And to my own Mummy, of course. Lol.

Turkayyyeeee came over to my house to study today. :3 She violated and raped my teddy bear ): But, she also taught me POA, and we did the Cheena mock paper together. ;) Then slacked and talked for like, a couple of hours, i think. Mostly talked about what we'll do after O-levels. I'm so gonna get a full-time job. $_$ 'Cause I have to get my own laptop and my parents are only willing to sponser 20% of the cost. Their excuse? They want me to be 'financially independent'. -.0 Like, whatever! Anw, I still have to work to save up for new clothes too. I need a total wardrobe overhaul. Like, very badly. -.- Jeez. Thinking of working in bookshops. 'Cause shops will give employees' discounts, and I need a new stock of books to readdddddddddd. :x -jumps up and down on the couch-

AND, HWANG SHIHYAO, MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT, YOU STILL OWE ME! STOP TELLING ME THAT IT'S AT BORDERS, DAMNIT! I've waited damnably long for it alr. -.- And if I don't get my book by the end of June holidays, a pink frilly Barbie dress is guaranteed for your birthday present, i swear it. -glare- Or maybe I should get a sickeningly purple Barney shirt for you. I'll alter it to make sure that it fits you, don't worry. Heh. -stares at you threateningly- On second thought, the dress seems like a better option. (:

[/edit] ohyeah, and grats Sara&Jer on their first month together ;3 Last long. (:

2009-05-10T13:21:00.002+08:00

Walaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

RC lagging like toot! Wth is wrong with Facebook. T-T

[/edit]

Anw, going over to Tampines1 in the evening for Mothers' Day Dinner. O:

Actually they agreed to my suggestion of going over to NYDC, but my dad changed his mind. -.- Says that he's lazy to drive a longer distance. -.- Ohwell. Heck. Raawr.

As long as there's food, I don't really give a damn. xD

Sara, stop calling me pig. -.- And thanks for the Mothers' Day sms today. LOL. :D

Pity there's no such thing as Daughters' Day. -smirks-

And Childrens' Day is not applicable for you, tyvm. ;P Heh.

Anw, imma off to FB! :D Now chatting with JW. Heh. ;P

2009-05-09T15:46:00.002+08:00

Cash flow's slow in Restaurant City on FB. -.- Raawr. I hate waiting for the moolah to come in. T-T

Anw, since I can't go out on monday, 'cause my mom made me stay at home and study, QP Turkayeeeee is coming over to my house. :D Wahahah. She's supposed to teach me History and POA. xD Talking to her on FB now. O: Heh. And i can't seem to download the songs i want. -.- The webbie don't have. D:

You remind me of a metorite.

One that crashes and burns and leaves behind nothing.

Nothing, but a huge crater and a trail of destruction in its wake.

2009-05-08T22:39:00.003+08:00

Lixin tagged me with this quiz in Facebook :D

1) Which primary school did you go to?
Maha Bodhi (:

2) What classes were you in?
1I, 2I, 3I, 4B, 5F, 6F

3) What was/were your favourite lesson(s)?
Err, the lessons that had my fave teachers. xD Definitely not maths. -sniggers-

4) If you could remember, what time was your recess?
9.30am, i think. :x

5) List down your favourite food/snacks.
OH MY GOD, ALL! :D BBQ chicken rice, lemon chicken rice, chicken porridge, laksa, wanton noodles, those potato wheel thingys, the fries, the hot hashbrowns, the fried rice, the curry vegetables, the icecreams sold by that bulldog-faced vendor (idk if she's still there) the cocktail soft drinks that the friendly uncle would sell, and and and, so much moreeeeeeeeee D:

Style

1) How did you wear your socks?
Ok ok la o.o slightly above my ankles? Haha.

2) Have you been suspended due to the way you put on your uniform?
Nope. I was such a good girl in primary sch. :D And i still am :D

3) Were you given plenty of reminders about your appearance?
Nah. Heh.

4) Who did you look up to when you were in primary school?
My band conductor, Mr Quek. Mr Preston Tan and Ms Lydia Goh. :/

Punishment

1) Name one memorable scene where you were punished in front of the whole class.

LOL! Lemme think .. Can't remember any. xD

2) Give one scene where you escaped from being caught/punished.
I'm too well-behaved. ;}

3) Did you vandalize any school property?
Table, definitely :x

4) Did you ever make any teacher cry?
Heck, no! -mock horror-

5) Who was your favourite teacher?
Hell, it'd definitely be Mr Tan! I still remember the Coka-Cola song he used to sing in class. :x

6) Describe your DM..
Mrs Alice Han. Her favourite sentence was something regarding coconuts. I think it was, "Eh, you children can please use your coconuts (brains) a not ha?" LOL

7) Who was the funniest/weirdest/loudest teacher?
- FUNNIEST: Mr Tan
- WEIRDEST: Mr Tan
- LOUDEST: Mr Tan
:D

Social Circle

1) Were you popular back then?
Heh, no.

2) Were you in a big group of boys/girls or small ones?
Smal lol.

3) Who were your best friends?
BABY SQUIDDY! Aka Lixin :D I was also quite close to another two guys, Ezekiel and Brian, i think. We'd talk about Pokemon, and Ezekiel would tell me about how it was like in California. :x I was the only girl he would talk to in class, probably I was more experienced in Pokemon than him xD

4) What were your favourite memories of you and your friends?
Too many. I think 6F chalet's one of them. <3>Co-curricular Activities

1) What type of CCA were you in?
CONCERT BAND! Performing Arts lo.

2) What did you have to bring to your CCA?
My instrument was kept in the storeroom. O: So most of the time I just bring scores and stuff.

3) What did your CCA required you to do?
Play beautiful music. And teach juniors. -_-

4) Got injured?
Can't really remember O.O

Crushes/Lovers

1) Who was your first crush?
Eh, heh heh, too private to be listed out :x But he was from 6F de :X

2) Are you in good terms with your last crush?
In primary school, yeah. Now lost contact. Lol.

3) Did you ever had a relationship with anyone in your primary school?
Nope! :x

4) Have you ever made out in school?
EXCUSE ME?! O-O!

Closing Ceremony

1) How did primary school change you?
Made me more independent and stuff? O:

2) Sing one verse of your school song.
Shu zhi pu ti qi ye chang chang, ge chang fuo guang pu ti. o__o Loved the sch song. Much much better than my current one -.-

3) What were your favourite question(s)?
To Brian : How's your pokemon now? Mine probably higher level than yours :D

To Ezekiel : Did you do your homework? Lend me can?

To Lixin : What're you having for recess? (i think)

4) Who/what will you remember from your primary school?
Many many people. My 6F classmates and teachers, especially :D

5) Any memories you will not forget.
A lot! <33>

2009-05-07T19:16:00.004+08:00

Yesterday;

A-maths

Screwed. But i think i probably did better than last year's EOY. -.-

Today;

Emaths paper 1;

I have a good feeling that I can probably pass this :D But I left out th question of Vectors. Didn't study tuppence for it -.-

POA Paper 1;

-Happy dance!- So happy for the paper :D Saw one 12mark question, purely theory on Capital and Revenue Expenditure. Heh. Needless to say, I think i probably aced that question. Wahah. So now got chance of passing POA, FINALLY! xD

Anw, picts for today~

Sticks out tongue. Lol. :x

Sara, Xinyi, Kimmy. Nu'er, Mother, and uhh... I think kimmy's my daughter too. O__o

Do not ever try patting Sara's head, or else she'll give ya the finger. :x

Kimmy ... what're you trying to do with that posture ..? -.-

Nerds! Complete with high skirts and tucked-in blouses :x

Sara nu'er and me O:

Yo kimmy! <3

2009-05-06T06:58:00.007+08:00

Pfft. Just had breakfast. Caramel swiss roll with Orange juice and pancakes :D Later going Techview study/revise/(whatever you call it) with classmates before going into school for A-Maths. 'kayes, now for updates on exams. O:

History (Monday, 4/5/09);

Was kinda ok. Think i'll probably do well for the SBQ section. Can't say the same for the SEQ section, though. -.- Ohwell. :/

Physics paper 1 &2 (Monday, 4/5/09);

Paper 2 was screwed. -.- 'Nuff said. As for paper 1, it was rather ok :D I'll probably pass. I have a lot of As for my OTAS, though. -.-

Chem paper 1 & 2 (yesterday, 5/5/09);

Paper 2 was fine. Lol. Saw 3 same questions on Rates of Rxn, the questions require us to apply our knowledge on how the surface area of powered or lump compounds work for the speed/rate at which it reacts. O: Was obviously very happy, 'cause free marks leh! :D Plus, i spent 1 hour doing Rates of Rxn on the TYS the night before. ;3 Heh.

Paper 1 was rather difficult, though. -.- Forgot how to calculate enthalpy changes, agh. -.- Forget it. I'm so gonna change to combined sciences aft MYE. .__.

POA paper 1 (yesterday, 5/5/09);

Will probably pass. Either a borderline pass, or a borderline fail. Heh. Hopefully i'll do better for paper 2! >_<

'kayes, i'm going to prepare to go out now. :D Listening to Chris Brown - Electric Guitar and Carrie Underwood songs now. Lol. && Yay, it's raining. ;3 I love rainy days. Wahahah.

♥ ;

And you drive me crazy half the time,

The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

2009-05-02T21:40:00.010+08:00

This post shall be dedicated to my ~~obesssion~~ .. I mean, my LOVE for fast, sleek, and smexaye cars, especially, PORSCHE! (: Ohyeah, you may jus scroll down this post or head for my cbox to leave me a tag if you have absolutely no interest in cars, tyvm. No need to insult my beloved Porsche Boxster S. -stare daggers at a certain someone- =.= And i know i should be studying for Phys, but yeah, heck. -.-

Boxster S

The new flagship model of the Boxster series presents an even more athletic interpretation of the roadster concept. More powerful and more efficient. Its brand new engine is now fitted with direct fuel injection (DFI) as standard. For increased torque and power – with a simultaneous reduction in fuel consumption. The result is 228 kW (310 hp) at 6,400 rpm and a maximum torque of 360 Nm at 4,400 – 5,500 rpm. It accelerates from 0 to 100 km/h (62 mph) in just 5.3 seconds.

With the optional Porsche Doppelkupplung (PDK) and ‘Launch Control’ from the optional Sport Chrono Package, just 5 seconds. Fuel con- sumption is further reduced by up to 15% depending on the type of gearbox, and CO2 emissions by up to 16%.

As well as the new 18-inch Boxster S II wheels in a dynamic design, the Boxster S is fitted with a braking system which is distinguished by its red-painted calipers. The rear brake discs are thicker than those on the Boxster for increased stability under braking.

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'kayes, enough crap about my obsession for Boxster. Ohyeah, and my Dad was pretty shocked when he saw me drooling over picts of the 911 Turbo Cabriolet. :x He says that normal teenage girls are supposed to be obsessed over fashion and celebrities instead of cars. -.- THAT'S GENDER DISCRIMINATION LA! =.= Sheesh.

And tmr i'm supposed to accompany my mom to some kind of temple to pray for blessings for my upcoming O's. :/ Hais. I'm dead nervous now lahhhhhhhhhhhh. -.- Think i'll probably change to Combined Sciences aft MYEs. Besides, they're only gonna look at my aggregate, it doesn't matter whether I take pure or combined :/

And btw, today during Chem remedial, I received smses from 4 random people saying hi and asking me stupid questions. Apparently, they're Shihyao's friends. -.- One of his friends took his phone and circulated my number around his whole class when they were having remedials too. Pro sia. -.- Didn't realise ACS(i) boys were so pro, and ~~lame~~. =_= Ha. Nevermind. Shall forgive, but not forget. I'd murder them if they sms me again, zz. But anw, i doubt they will. :D

And uh, my bro's voice sucks. We competing with each other now, singing Simple Plan songs and running around the house xD My parents not at home whad :x Heh. EH, SHIT, THAT ASS JUS THREW A CUSHION AT ME CAUSE I SAT DOWN TO BLOG. =.= YOU .. LITTLE .. SQUIRT! He's gonna be so dead. Heh. Bye all! :D

♥ ; I dedicate these words to you .

2009-05-01T21:22:00.013+08:00

To Nicolette

Before YOU start getting "pissy" and pollute my blog, perhaps you should ask why i'm getting so "pissy" with your dearest, darling bro? He does NOTHING, but to play maple all day long. What would you do if your boyf does that to you? How would you feel? He does not even listen to me. I alr told/warned him so many times to try cut down on the time that he spends on maple. But he never listens. And i may not know him as much as you do, but I do know part of the torture he has been though. Losing a loved one, and being berated everyday for no good reason. Getting beaten and having chilli rubbed into his eyes, he told me all that. And technically, i didn't really ask him to defend me. I did not "point a gun at his head and forced" him to defend me. Get your facts right, girl. You sure he didn't played with me? He was blurring the line between virtual and reality. Liking another girl while proclaiming that he still loves me. Not forgetting his ex for more than 3 months. I initially didn't want to patch with him. But no, he kept begging me and telling me that he's changed. Telling me that he needs me. So i gave him a second chance. I'm not trying to make myself out to be so noble. But anw, we patched. And he still hasn't changed. I'm not scolding Clarence either. But since he decided to make such a big hullabaloo when I broke up with him and vented my emotions, I've decided to return the same to him in kind. And oh no, he DID say stuff when I'm busy. He'd get pissy when I told him I can't talk on the phone cause I had to do my homework. He'd get irritated and moody when I told him i can't talk on the phone 'casue of my parents. HE'D GET PISSY AND MOODY AND HUFFY AND PUFFY WHEN I WAS TALKING TO MY FRIENDS.

To Clarence

You, shut up, and stop whining, and stop telling me to not talk with your jie. She wanted to come here and defend you. So i'll just have to talk to her and make her see that I didn't wanted to scold you in the first place, but since things have come down to this, I doubt I have any other choice. And goddamnit, we were both victims of each other, happy? So quit whining. I can't stand it.

You said that you love me, but it's too bad that I won't believe you anymore.

You claim that I'm your only one, but too bad, it's over between us.

I'm so sorry that I've hurt you before, and that I've played the part of a villian several times, but look on the bright side : it's over between us, you won't have to deal with my thrashy attitude anymore, no? So, go on, rejoice, and pop some champagne.

To Sara

Lol, thanks? :x

To Shihyao

Clarence wanted me to stop smsing you when I was together with you. He'd keep requesting me to do that everytime I'm on the phone with him or smsing him. Sorry that I kept this from you.

2009-05-01T20:14:00.009+08:00

Relatives from M'sia came over today. Then my bro did my hair for me after I bathed and before we went over to my Godma's hosue in Woodlands. -.- Lol. He insisted. Since when did he become such a nice bro? -.0 Anw, I look like some kind of 10 year old kid with my hair in pigtails. Nevermind, shall let the picts do th talking ~

This is how the pigtail(s) look like after my bro was done. .__. Oh, btw, that's my parents' wedding pict in the background :D and the bed was stripped 'cause the sheets needed to be washed.

Me with the pig I got from my bro's friend. LOL. Cute, right? ;3 And my fringe looks damn straight O: Has it always been this way? I dno. :x

What I wore for today.

Thinking of you .

Anw, went over to Godma's house, and was assigned the task of playing with her grandchildren while my bro gets to use the comp and play his PSP. WTF! Unfair! ): The 'double trouble', were seriously troublesome. While one sits in my lap, another one will pull at my pigtails. Walaoooooooooooooooo. -.- Then I had to help them build Lego buildings. Zz. I swear, they're lucky that there were adults in the house, or else i'd have chased them around the apartment. -.-

Went for dinner at Causeway Point, then headed home. Changed, and blogged.

2009-05-01T00:20:00.006+08:00

Yesterday ;

Drew on Izzul's paper during POA. LOL.

Syakir drew the fish, and I drew the retarded cat. ;x Then i wrote the words "Stupid Fat Cat" there. I have artistic skills, no? xD

Went to KFC with Sara, Jer, Eve, and Kimmy came later. Rosiana, Sunwoo, Damien and Yiting were there too. Talked and laughed like mad. Lol. Then went home. :/

This is how the back of my foolscap pad looks like now. -.- Lol. Wrote lyrics like siao on it during Phy. :x

'kayes, i'm gonna go get some sleep (it's 12.57am now, 1st may 09). Tell Her by Jesse McCartney makes me wanna cry, yet I can't seem to stop listening to it on repeat. ._.

When you wait for a call that never comes,

Or you wake at night 'cause you miss someone.

Baby, this is how it feels, when the trust you had is broken,

And you're left to burn with your heart wide open.

You taught me how to hate you, when I was so in love.

When I tried to save us it was not enough.

So what the hell is different?

'cause now that I am gone.

You're crawling back to tell me, I'm the one.

And now I've moved on by myself, maybe I won't forgive,

I'll just forget you lived. And I hope it hurts.

2009-04-29T16:41:00.003+08:00

OHFUCKYOU, FUCKYOU, FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKYOU!

GO HELL LA, I'M GIVING UP ON YOU ALR.

DON'T COME CRAWLING BACK TO ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU NEED ME.

YOUR GUILT TRIPS DON'T FUCKING WORK ON ME ANYMORE.

I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH YOU CRY OR HOW MUCH YOU WANNA DIE.

I WON'T BOTHER ABOUT WHAT YOU SAY OR DO ANYMORE.

YOU CAN FUCKING GO FUCK YOURSELF FOR ALL I CARE.

KANINABEHCHAOCHEEBYE, FUCKITY FUCKITY FUCK -'-

Maple's your first wife uh? Then I'm what, chopped liver? Go out with me, be seen in public with me, is just a huge embarassment to you uh? You don't even fucking listen to whatever fuck i say. Usually whenever I call you, you'd be on maple. Do you know how annoying it is? Honestly, you do not behave like a normal boyfriend at all. So much with the 'I can't possibly give up on us now' thoughts that I had running through my head last week. And yeah, I'm taking back my love. My love for you.

I've given you too much, now i'm taking back my love.

2009-04-29T14:15:00.005+08:00

E-Maths Paper 2 ;

Have a chance of passing, for the first time in 4 years. Lol. That's all I can say. .__.

English Paper 2 ;

I can't seem to concentrate! ARGH. -.- One phrase says it all : Epic Phailure. =.=

Feel so freaking pissed. I'm going on Facebook now, and run over some runts with my newly modified Mclaren F1. Grr..

I swear, they're hopping mad in this vid. Smashing everything in the house, then making out at the end of it. .__.

[Enrique:]
Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?
You think I don't know you're out of control?
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..

[Ciara:]
Yeah
What did I do but give love to you
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you
You think that you know (I do), you've made yourself cold (Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl
You're out of control (So what?), how could you let go? (Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material

[Both:]
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

[Enrique:]
So all this love I give you, take it away, (Unh, uh huh)
[Ciara:]
You think material's the reason I came, (Unh, uh huh)
[Enrique:]
If I had nothing would you want me to stay (Unh, uh huh)
[Ciara:]
You keep your money, take it all away

[Both:]
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love (x3)

Ooh, my love
Ooh, my love

2009-04-28T19:50:00.001+08:00

MY PHONE IS BLOODY HELL SCREWED UP . -'-

My god, i can't wait for June/July. That's when I'll (finally!) be getting my new phone =.=

2009-04-28T16:00:00.005+08:00

Now at Clarence's house. :D His pillow's my hostage now. Muahahahhaha.

Using his laptop to blog, LOL.

'kayes, now for the updates on today's examinations :/

Social Studies ;

SBQ was easy! Completed all question with cross-reference included for the last two questions. Heh. Usually i'd forget to cross-ref. -.- Then I only had enough time to do the given factor for the first essay for SEQ, but second essay, no time to do. -.- Damnit.

MT paper 2 ;

The paper seemed rather easy this time.. which means I probably screwed it up unknowingly and unwittingly. -.- Lol. Raawr.

Yawnzcxczxczxczcczxcxxczczx. I'm tired. Think i'll go take a nap. Bye penguins! :B Wahahahahah. Damnit, i just remembered .. shiet, haven't completed my chem prelim practice paper. -.-

I can wait forever

[/edit] And, ohmyfreakinghellgodwtfbbqppgwth! Tomorrow's English Paper2 and E-maths Paper2! OH, BLOOODYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~ =.= My Eng's been going downhill since beginning of sec3 -.-

2009-04-27T17:06:00.005+08:00

Social Studies suck. I can't seem to memorise anything about Deterrence and Diplomacy at all. -_- Zz. Gah, why the heck must Britian fish inside Iceland's fishing zone?! -.- Stubborn ole fogeys. -.-

Anw, i just finished modifying my beloved Mclaren F1 and Vanquish. 8D Sooooo hottttt, so smexyae. ;} Heh. The contours are awesome D: And sleek~ <3

...

I WANT! D:

2009-04-27T14:30:00.006+08:00

English Paper 1 ;

Screwed up. -.- Couldn't concentrate. Take My Hand by Simple Plan keeps repeating itself over and over again in my head.

Was planning to write on 'Sorrow', 'cause I have this weird story about like, kena sent to a nursing home by your children that you raised when you're old and terminally ill and how heart-breaking it can be, blahblahblah. Or maybe like, parents estranged from children 'cause the stupid parents are always at work and don't care about their child and then they only realise their mistake when their child gets the preggers/becomes a jailbird and hates them like hell. Or something else that's equally crazy. .__. BUT THEN, I KNOW HOW TO WRITE THE STORY, BUT DNO HOW TO START. -'- Then wasted 20 fucking minutes thinking of how to start the stupid story. -.- Then I was like, "OH, BLOODYYYYY~" after I glanced at the clock. Then I just gave up and picked another topic, which happens to be a descriptive essay that requires me "to describe the sights and sounds of a traditional festival" in my country. Should have picked the one about the harrowing incident thingy. -.- Scribbled out an essay, which, i think, went out of point. -_-! Then turned over to the Situational Writing part, need to write speech about some kind of voting for Graduation Ceremony venue. Almost laughed out loud, topic so freaking easy. Scribbled out another two pages of words, and then drifted off to Lalaland for around 10minutes. ;3 Smsed Sara, she was like, "why do you always choose the retarded topics to write on?" Honestly, Sara, I don't know. -.- Smsed Clarence, that idiotic sadistic ali baba, and he was damn happy at the thought that I'd probably fail my english for the first time ever. -.- Meanieeeee, you watch out. >:D

Chinese Paper 1 ;

Couldn't concentrate even more. -.- No need to elaborate lah, confirm fail. .__. Waiting For Yesterday by David Archuleta keeps repeating in my head. My mind keeps running wild. Zz.

Maybe I'm worrying for nothing? But I think it's better to be safer than sorrier.

The city sleeps and we're lost in the moment .
Another kiss says we're lying on the pavement .
If they could see us they would tell us that we're crazy .

Take my hand tonight , let's not think about tomorrow .
Take my hand tonight , we could find some place to go .

The raindrops , the tears keep falling .
Take my hand tonight , one last time .

[/edit] Sambal. Chilli. Is. Burning. My. Mouth. I'm breathing fire!

2009-04-25T07:25:00.005+08:00

The hunter, the hunted.

Celeste thought that she'd be safe, for now.

But when she felt an arm cuffing her around her neck, she knew. Celeste froze, her reflex reaction causing her body to become as stiff and cold as the rusty gun barrel placed at her temple. She was forced into a kneeling position on the ground by her captor.

"No struggling, darling, and I'll make your death a quick one," purred Rebecca. "Less pain and suffering that way," she added darkly, her voice dangerously lowered.

"But .. Why did you have to do this?" pleaded her hapless captive. "There has to be another altern-" Celeste winced as Rebecca tightened her hold around her neck.

"There isn't." The hunter hissed menancingly. "You fucking bitch, you know too much."

I think I've been reading too much thriller and suspense. -.- But they're so addictive D:

2009-04-25T07:18:00.002+08:00

I think you oughta be shot dead, with a cold gun, in my hands.

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

2009-04-24T18:04:00.003+08:00

Random : I'm lazy to upload unavailable songs to my Mixpod via Fileden. Lol.

Anw, monday's my English and Cheena Paper1. -.-

Hopefully, for my Eng paper 1, the title 'Regrets' or 'Chances' or some kind of 'emo' topic will come out as the theme for the one-word essay. 'Cause I have zillions of stories to write about 'em. Teenage pregnancy, divorced, estranged from children and family, blah blah blah. Yes, I've read too much of those somber stories from 'Chicken Soup for the Soul', perhaps. So sue me. (: Heh.

Anw, I'm getting a new phone soon! Okay, maybe not that soon. :/ Probably somewhere around June or July, I guess. Have to wait about 2 to 3 more months. Agh. Lol. I want a phone with big screen and Wi-Fi access. D: And also a decent camara, of at least 3.2 megapixels, pretty please. :X Heh.

Another random thought. I'm craving for .. meatballs, steak, any western/italian/french/spanish/japanese/korean food and Kinder products! D: I know i'm a maniac. But, heck. ;3 I love food. (:

[/edit] I'm lazy to change my blogskin. ._. Can't find any that suits my taste, anw. But i'm sick and tired of my current blogskin. Somebody slap me, pl0x. -.-

2009-04-22T20:52:00.009+08:00

Tuesday ;

Had Titration test during Chem. My solution went from emerald green to ruby red without producing the stupid pale pink that was required. -.- And all these while I was cursing under my breath. Looked around, and saw Felix equally at a loss as well. And we were looking at each other helplessly. -.-He copied my Titration table. .__. Zz. Damndamndamndamn. -.- While washing up, Felix, Liploon and I were complaining about the lack of space. Lol. -.- And the whole sink was like, a sea of purple due to the excess Potassium Permangate/Manganate (dno the correct spelling) that was thrown away. xD And my fingers kena stained by it. Zz. Ohwell, hopefully i'll fare better during the next Titration experiment. :/

I love Chem, but i detest Physics. Heh. -_-

Today ;

Dizzy spells struck again. Raawr. =.= Kept talking to Syakir during Phy, to keep myself from falling asleep. I scored a single digit for my Mock Exam, as predicted. x.x Syakir was like, "See lah, sleep somemore lah! LOL." :x Anw, Physics and I are so not meant for each other, tyvm. -.-

Chem remedial was fine, and Phy remedial kena drag till 5.30pm. The two aunties, CH and Liploon were seating beside me, lol. I was sandwiched in between them, sian. :x Madam Low went through the ME paper, found out that I made a hell lot of careless mistakes. The amazing thing was that, the whole batch taking P-Physics in my classs failed! O.O Whoa-oh. Anw, Liploon kept talking about A-Maths stuffs and CH kept poking me with his pen. D: Meanie. Ha. Went to meet Sara and Kimmy after remedial, then took bus home with Sara. (:

[/edit] I'm addicted to Crazier by Taylor Swift. :D

I've never gone with the wind, just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til you open the door, there's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly but I couldn't find my wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier.

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe.

2009-04-19T20:49:00.003+08:00

Realised that my blog posts' are getting crappier, with nothing exciting to read about. -.-

Anw, been planning to change blogskin for quite some time alr, but I've been lazy. Now I'm reduced to surfing random blogs and vids on Youtube, while waiting for that Twatty Birdy Shihyao to go on msn and send me songs. Great, he's now walking home. -.- And I sent him an sms that says, "YES, FINALLY. RUN, DON'T WALK! FLAP YOUR WINGS, YOU TWITTY BIRD, AND FLY!" LOL. :x

Anw, I miss Clarence. How long has it been since I last saw him? -.- feels like its been eons. :/

2009-04-18T18:58:00.002+08:00

Where were you when I needed you the most?

Anw, today went to browse Bedok lib in the morning. Met sara for lunch after that. Walked around like a couple of idiot 'till we realised that BK's closed down and an upcoming Italian restaurant's in it's place. -.- Lol. Went Macs, and crapped and talked there. Damn funny la :x Lol. Then after that I went home.

Nothing much to blog about these days, mundane life. -.- Just post for the sake of posting. Lol. Nothing better to do. Lazy to study too. -.-

2009-04-17T20:19:00.007+08:00

I think i wanna die. -.- I lost my precious M2 card reader! T-T

Anw, screwed up today's Cheena Oral. -.- I wasn't listening to the teacher, and I was kinda distracted when she was asking me the question. Then she asked in Chinese, "Xin Yi? Did you hear what I was asking you?" Then I just gave her that blur look and then she repeated her question. Then a whole string of words just came out of my mouth without being processed in my brain. -.- Freak. I think I can kiss my A1 for Chinese goodbye liao. -.- Kena drag down by Cheena Oral. -.-

MYEs are coming soon. And SOMEONE* promised me he'll study hor? But never study. -.- Don't keep kissing your laptop can? Zz. Keep telling me you'll study but still, I don't see that happening anytime soon. :/ Anw, sorry about all that happened recently. :/ Forgive me, please? iloveyou. :x

Anw, I hope I can pass all subjects for MYE. I'm finally improving in my POA. -.- And I don't keep drifting in and out of sleep during POA anymore :D But Physics.. heh. -.- A-Maths uh, I think i get a borderline pass liao la, for now. -.-

Please please please, lemme score an A2 for my English in MYE and sustain till the O's. D:

Please please please, lemme score an A2 for my Chinese in MYE and sustain till the O's. D:

Please please please, lemme score an B3 for my Chemistry in MYE and sustain till the O's. D:

Please please please, lemme score an B3 for my C.Humans in MYE and sustain till the O's. D:

Please please please, lemme score a pass for my other subjs in MYE, and get B4 for each during the O's. D:

I'm bored. Listening to The Fallen by Franz Ferdinand now. Perfect for when I'm feeling irritated. (: Later gonna switch to my other two favourite songs, With You - Sum 41 and You Found Me - The Fray. Perfect for emoing. (:

2009-04-16T22:35:00.001+08:00

"Thanks," purrs the cat. "I've been working out."

LOL, smexaye kitty ;}

2009-04-15T21:37:00.003+08:00

Now chatting with QP on msn. ;D

Yan QianPing Roasted Turkey and Tiew XinYi Roasted Goosey are meant for each other. xD

Come darling, gimmeh a kiss.

-smooch- =D LOL. xD

Okay, that's gross. :x Heh.

Enrique Iglesias rocks. Take My Hand by Simple Plan's stuck in my head.

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

How can I love you,

How can I love you,

How can I love you?

If you just don't talk to me, babe?

2009-04-15T20:34:00.004+08:00

Decided to blog, 'cause I have nothing better to do. Heh. -.-

Screwed up today's Physics mock exam real bad. First question alr mocking me. -.- Zz. Couldn't even think properly. Kept drifting in and out of sleep too. Lol. Then Syakir kept poking me with his pen, trying to wake me up several times, presumably 'cause Madam Low was looking at me? Haha. But i don't care la. -.- Pure physics suck D: Anw, thanks, but I was really too tired lah. >_<

&& Qp's badgering me to send over some items to her in Pet Society, 'cause she's seriously too deprived. xD 'S fine, since i'm such a magnanimous person, I shall abide by her request. ;D

My legs and back still hurts, and it's all thanks to the practices that I did before it was my turn for the respective 5 stations on Monday's Napfa test. Was actually qualified for a Gold, but because of my E for Sit&Reach, I fell flat on my face instead, and I think I can kiss my hopes of getting a Gold goodbye now -.- Zz.

And and and, Friday's my Chinese Oral, fishballs. D: Wish me luck. ;X

2009-04-13T18:20:00.002+08:00

I'm lazy to study and do my homework.

So sue me.

kthxbye, i'm off.

Take my hand tonight, let's not think about tomorrow.

Take my hand tonight, we can find some place to go.

Take my hand tonight, one last time. :/

2009-04-12T20:34:00.003+08:00

k, this post is to Sara. -.-

CONGRATSANDLASTLONGCONGRATSANDLASTLONGCONGRATSANDLASTLONG

CONGRATSANDLASTLONGCONGRATSANDLASTLONG

Spent around 20minutes on this. :x

A lil' messy, but hope you like it -.- :3

2009-04-12T09:20:00.006+08:00

Happy 1st Month ~

Heh. :3

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

You better freaking appreciate this. .__.

I spent a freaking 30mins doing it. .__.ll

2009-04-11T20:17:00.006+08:00

Today was fun! :D

Firstly, went to Uniqlo with Kimmy, Eve, and Sara.

The clothes there damn nice la -.-

I want! D: but nooooooo, my parents won't buy for me, over their dead bodies. -.-

After leaving Uniqlo, walked around again.

Tried on dresses with Eve and Sara. :/

Then went to eat.

Then Eve and Kimmy left early.

Then Sara and I walked around.

And saw one couple PDA-ing -.-

Their hands were all over each other 8D Wahahahas.

And I was like, whispering to Sara, "you see the girl's hand, later go down, down down down.."

Then she couldn't stop laughing. xD

And saw them go to the stairs there.

Wanted to go in. Then catch them unawares.

Then planned to gasp rrreeaaaaalllllyyyyy loudly. xD And scare them 8D

And when i told Sara about my plan, she couldn't stop laughing again 8D

Naughty girl xD LOLOL.

But no, we decided not to go. :/ So sad :x

Anw, walked around, and tried on more dresses.

Saw 2 black dresses that I like a lot a lot D:

But one is $37, another one is $39. -.- Wtfzxzxzxczxz.

No moolah T-T Lol. Sad sia ):

Anw, I rarely wear dresses -shrugs-

Mayb I'll start trying to be more feminine when I get to poly ba. -.-

But that'll be like, next year. :x

Took several FB quizzes about GossipGirl. here're the results~

1. What GG female character are you? : Jenny Humphrey ~.~

2. What GG boy fits your love life? : Nate :D

3. What GG character are you? : Jenny Humphrey ~.~

4. Which GG girl/guy are you? : Serena van der Woodsen -.0

5. Which GG character are you? : Serena van der Woodsen -.0

-.- Nice results. LOL.

2009-04-11T07:52:00.003+08:00

Just woke up. Yawnzxzxzcxzcxzczx.

Later imma going out with Kimmy and Sara to Tampines1. Lol. But for now, I'm reading through articles on Architectural stuff, to kill time. :/ Usually i'd be spam-doing quizzes on FB, but it's lagging like hell now. -.- So, yeah.

My brother was kinda shocked when he realised that I'm planning to go SP's Architecture. Then he also says stuff about Architecture being a male-domanated industry. So what? Big deal. -.- As if i'm scared of the Y-chromosomes? Zz. Who says that X-chromosomes can't survive in Architecture? Lol. Sexual discrimination, much? -.-

Anyway, think i'll go prepare now. ;} Bye, penguins! xD

2009-04-10T15:14:00.004+08:00

I've never felt so miserable and cried so much before. It's like the walls are closing in around me, suffocating me, I can't breathe properly. With no one here to save me, I feel like dying now. Am I being melodramatic over such a trivial matter, or what? It may be trivial to you, but to me, it's not as minor as you make it out to be. I really don't know how much longer I can hold on. I don't know how much more of this shit I can take. Should I really give up? But I don't want to. You'll never be able to understand how I feel. If only you knew. .. :/

Where did the Clarence that I once knew and loved go to?

Now in his place, is just an empty shell. A incurable, unrepentant, uncontrollable maple addict.

I want the ex-Clarence back. I want him back so badly.

Darling, you've changed, so much.

I really don't know what to say anymore. ..

"All the games you played, the promises you made,

couldn't finish what you started, only darkness still remains."

"Where'd you go? I miss you so.

Seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone."

2009-04-10T08:50:00.006+08:00

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了, 这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天, 有一天都会停的
让时间说真话, 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后

谁还记得是谁, 先说永远的爱我
以前的一句是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了, 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑怎么说, 怎么说都没有救
亲爱的, 为什么? 也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你, 你选择了自己
撒娇的, 可爱的, 迷人的, 爱哭的

照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易

爱不是一场雨, 努力就有结局
撒娇的, 可爱的, 迷人的, 爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

2009-04-09T21:43:00.003+08:00

Blogging again. Haha. Wheeeeeeeeee~ [:

Now Huijuan, Weilin, Liploon, and Shihyao owes me birthday presents :3 Still got other people, i think. O: But i don't wanna expect too much. :/ But at least it's the thought that counts. (:

Today's History remedial was fun! :D Mr Chew/Choo/whatever-his-name-is is a so much better teacher than Madam Nurmah. I feel that he makes the lesson easier to understand. Plus, his notes are similar to Miss Seet's, in terms of format. Ahhh, I miss Miss Seettttttttttt~ ):

Anw, saturday going out with Sara and Kimmy. Heh. :3 Will be walking around the newly opened mall at Tampines too. ;} Wheee. I wanna watch Fast&Furious4 and 17Again! D: But no moolah. :x Oh well. Will probably buy the DVDs when it comes out. (: or watch online, heh.

[/edit] and oh, i cut my own fringe this morning xD Trimmed it to become side-swept. Not very obvious, though O: Mayb i'll cut more, or wait till about a couple of weeks later then trim it again. :3 Heh.

2009-04-07T20:51:00.002+08:00

Fishballs, i kena stomachache ): So suay. T-T

&&, knnccb.

My dad go complain to my mom over the phone about me using comp. -'-

Cut me some slack la, will die meh?

I know MYE coming, but today my birthday leh.

Other ppl's parents will let them off for a day when their birthday comes,

Why not my parents do the same too?

Please la, they even take their children out or something or at least let their child stay out slightly later than usual.

Why can't my parents do the same?

I hate it when they're so domineering and controlling and restrictive and overprotective.

Like I can't take care of myself liddat?

I'd be dead by now if i really can't take care of myself.

Zz.

Fug la. -'- No mood liao. -.-

2009-04-07T20:16:00.003+08:00

TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY! Wahaha. Thanks all, who sent me birthday messages or wished me happy birthday on the phone -coughs- . And hor, must give special mention to SOMEONE*, who "volunteered" to stay up with me till midnight to wait for the arrival of 7th April by smsing me. Thanks la hor, i'm sooooooooooooooo touched. xD LOLOL.

Not in any order

Lixin, Rosiana, Sebastian, Shihyao, Alwin, Yanjuan, Qianping, Clarence, Huijuan, WeiLin .. Hope I didnt miss out anyone. :x

And those who wished me Happy Birthday in sch or anywhere else :D (Not in any order)

Yanjuan, Edwin (not the 4E one -.-), Jiawei, Kitson, Qianyu, Jiayu, Milken, Yichun (she freaking screamed into my ear -.-!), Liploon, Jessilyn, Farisha, Zijie, XuanJin, Huijuan, Joel, Mildred, Jacqueline, Clara, the KRSEX clique (Kimberly, Rosiana, Sara, Evelyn) :D And any others whom I accidentally missed out. :/

And I received one blue birthday card from Mildred, several slaps from Huijuan (I'll get you back for this, i swear -.-) and a book + necklace from KRSEX. :}

Looking forward to more (belated) presents! :D From Huijuan, especially :}

2009-04-06T17:55:00.003+08:00

Today's Kewen's birthday and tmr's MY BIRTHDAY!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

But have the stupid stress management workshop. -.- And Huijuan say she reserve me from 5pm till 6.30pm, after the workshop. But she say got no surprises prepared for me ): Swt. -.-

2009-04-02T18:45:00.003+08:00

AGH, SO FREAKING PISSED!

My parents actually said that they wanted to take me to Sentosa's Dolphin Lagoon next weekend for my belated birthday celebration, but they suddenly changed their minds): And idk why. -.-

I really wanted to go deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ T^T

Nevermind, shall not get upset over this. -.- They say that they'll take me there next time. yeah, but when? After my O-Levels? You've gotta be kidding me. Everything also after o-levels, after o-levels, or earliest, after Prelims. -.-

Screw teh 'O's. -.-

2009-04-02T17:51:00.003+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

School today was ohkaye lah. :/

Anw, thanks Jessilyn, Milred, Syakir, QianPing and Izzul for trying to cheer me up, accompanying me in class when I wasn't feeling well (and risked getting scolded by Mdm Low :x , but she didn't), and packing my stuff when I was too weak to move (jessilyn only) :x

Now listening to What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts. :/ Nice song. Next song on the playlist : Why - Secondhand Serenade. @.@ Haunting lyrics? Lol. :/

2009-04-01T17:46:00.003+08:00

Today's XiaoLi's birthday & April Fool's Day. :/

Nothing much happened during curriculum hours today. Last two periods, went to Physics lab. Crapped with Syakir and smsed Huijuan and WeiLin throughout the whole lesson. -.- Lol. Then I started doodling on his Electromagnet notes with a pencil, left-handed. :D Then he was like, staring at me with this "what-the-freaking-hell-do-you-think-you-are-doing?!" face. HAHA. Like, hey, at least I used a pencil. You should start worrying when I use a pen to doodle. Heh, maybe I really should do so next time. [:

Dad picked me up after school to go to the ICA building at Lavendar to do some "official stuff". -.- Wasted my time there. LOL. Waited for about two freaking hours before it was finally my turn, ha. -.- At least I got it over and done with. Lol. Then drove back home, but my mood was totally spoiled when I reached my doorstep. Zz. Changed, and blogged.

Gtg, bye alllllllllllllllllllll~ :D PS, it's just 6 more days! :D

[/edit] Shihyao, you don't own la. I pwn you lo. xD And racing is cool hor. Take a look at all the smexaye babes (referring to cars) available! D: Omgosh. I'm a sucker for red sports cars. :D

2009-03-30T19:33:00.005+08:00

Facebook quiz result :/

Now sending over a hell lot of songs to Yanjuan over msn. LOL. Stupid, retarded, detestable, Hwang Shih Yao doesn't have the songs i want with him now. =_= I feel like turning him into a caterpillar and squashing him under my feet. Zz.

Anw, A-Maths test today was crappy. Zz. I didn't even know that there was supposed to be a test until I saw Yanjuan looking through her study cards this morning! FISHBALLS la. -.- Needless to say, i died a miserable death while doing the test. Bleah.

And i'm supposed to be having some kind of stress management workshop (Combined with 4D) next tuesday. My birthday. AGH! Damnit. Wanted to change sessions so that I can go off and celebrate my birthday instead. But Merz Sultanah say cannot. ): Grr. Sweet sixteen become sour sixteen liao. =_=

O-levels coming soon, it's just around 30 weeks more! Crapppppppp. ~.~!

[/edit] new cbox, specially requested by Shihyao. -.- anw, i also wanted to refresh button :x

2009-03-29T16:35:00.003+08:00

Posting lyrics makes me feel better :/

Cuz we belong together now, yea
Forever united here somehow, yea
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid
For telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong
For tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go.

I looked away, then I look back at you,
You try to say, the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way, I'd never get over you,
Today's the day, I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall, make it through it all.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it.
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one, I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone, you bring me back again.
Back under the stars, back into your arms.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it, and I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you. I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are, wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.
Wanna know how you feel, wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything, everything.

'Cause I'm in love with you.

2009-03-29T14:22:00.003+08:00

Now doing History SBQ and patching maple. :/ Nothing much to do. Feel so lethargic lately. D: Ohya, and btw, I just discovered a new species of insect-human hybrid. O: That's the cauterpielleaurs eyeborouxes (Caterpillar eyebrows) :D And the one and only living example on Mother Earth is none other than.. HWANG SHIHYAO! -dramatic fanfare&drum roll- xD

Okayy, now, jokes aside, I have one announcement to make. Carrie Underwood and Taylor Swift and Paramore rocks. :3 Downloading their songs now. Teehee! :3 [/edit] Fug, I think my M2 card reader got problem! D:

Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?

No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean.

Friday night beneath the stars,
in a field behind your yard,
you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.
And sometimes we don't say a thing;
just listen to the crickets sing.
Everything I need is right here by my side.
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you.

I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want
You got it you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

2009-03-27T17:19:00.004+08:00

Shihyao and Sara tagged me with this stupid quiz. Zz.

Write the names of 16 friends you can think in ur mind.And then answer the questions, say you're guessing if you don't know.But at least guess on all of them.After doing this, tag 21 unlucky friends to do the same thing.

1. Sara
2. Clarence
3. Shihyao
4. Evelyn
5. Kimberly
6. Huijuan
7. Rosiana
8. Farisha
9. Yichun
10. Liploon
11. Jessilyn
12. Mildred
13. Nerissa
14. ChuenHeng
15. JianMing
16. Jiawei
17. Qianping
18. Darren
19. Weilin
20. Lixin
21. Wee Keong (i was alr running out of names) -.-

1. How do i meet 7? (Rosiana)
Same school . o.o

2. What would u do if u and 15 had never met? (JianMing)
-.-? He's my cousin, damnit. LOL.

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Lixin and Sara)
O.O omgosh! I'm pretty sure both of them are straight!

4. Have u seen 17 cried? (QianPing)
Er, not sure. Lol.

5. Would 4 & 16 Make a good couple? (Eve and Jiawei)
HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY.. hell no! One in Singapore, one in malaysia leh! LOL.

6. Do u think 11 is attractive? (Jessilyn)
-sniggers- Okok la, average.

7. What is 2's Favourite colour? (Clarence)
Never asked him before. :x me thinks it's black. -.- everytime confirm got wear one black item de.

8. When the last time i talked to 9? (Yichun)
Today lo.

9. What language does 8 speaks? (Farisha)
Very bad chinese, excellent english&malay. :3

10. Who is 13 going out with? (Nerissa)
She's single.

11. Would u ever date with 17? (Qianping)
HELL, NO!

12. Where does 18 live? (Darren)
Somewhere in Bedok, i think.

13. What is the best thing about 4? (Evelyn)
Her cookies. LOL. She's my bestie, duh!

14. What would u like to tell 10 right now? (Liploon)
.. -thinks fast- HOW TO DO AMATHS AH?!

15. What's the best thing about 20? (Lixin)
She's my bestest bestie. :3

16. Have i ever kiss 2?(Clarence)
.. -.-

17. What is the best memory you have of 5? (Kimberly)
Uhh. Most recent one is, we both in the bus talking about crawling into caves and metamorphosis. :D

18. When is the next time u will be seeing 4? (Evelyn)
Tomorrow, I think. Having the speech day thing.

19. How is 7 different from 6? (Rosiana and Huijuan)
Err.. Too many differences to list down :x

20. Is 2 pretty? (Clarence)

.. HE'S PRETTY?! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ -gags- -.- Pretty boy, yes. Pretty, no.

21. What is the first impression of 15? (Jianming)
A short snob.

22. How did you meet 3? (Shihyao)
Maple, same guild. LOL.

23. Is 15 one of your best friends? (Jianming)
MY COUSIN LA, DAMNIT. MY C-O-U-S-I-N!

24. Do u hate 12? (Mildred)
Hmm, love-hate relationship la, hor? :3 She gets irritated by me and vice versa :3

25. Have u seen 18 in the last month? (Darren)
o-o same class leh. whaddaya think?

26. When was the last time u saw 16? (Jiawei)
Never seen him before. LOL.

27. Have u been to 5's house? (Kimberly)
yeah .

28. When's is the next time u will see 10? (Liploon)
TOMORROW . :3

29. Are u close to 11? (Jessilyn)
Ok ok ba. o.o

30. Have u been to the movie with 4? (Evelyn)
I doubt so. O:

31. Have u gotten any trouble with 8? (Farisha)
No la! D:

32. Will u give 19 a hug? (Weilin)
Yeah. o.o

33. When have u lied to 3? (Shihyao)
Lie to him fer whad? -.0

34. Is 11 good in socializing? (Jessilyn)
Yeah. HAHA.

35. Do u have know a secret about 8? (Farisha)
Dont think so o-O

36. Describle the relationship between 12 & 18? (Mildred and Darren)
Classmates lo o.o

37. What's the best thing about ur friendship with 9? (Yichun)
WE TAKE DAMN LOTS OF PICT TOGETHER! :D

38. What's the worst thing about 6? (Huijuan)
Nothing? Lol. ;x

39. Have u ever have a crush with 12? (Mildred)
PLEASE LA, I NOT LES!

40. How long have u know 2? (Clarence)
Uhh. Idk? I dont keep track ;x

41. Does 11 Have any boyfriend or girlfriend? (Jessilyn)
Nopeeeeeeeeee. :3

42. Have u ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (Sara)
YEASH! Omgosh, so many times la! D: :3

43. Has 21 meet ur parents (Wee Keong)
He meet my parents for what? -.-

44. How did you meet 11? (Mildred)
Uhm, let's see, .. we were both anime artists :/ I think o.o

45. Did u ever accidently phyciscally hurt 3? (Shihyao)
No, all on purpose de {:

46. Do u live close to 7? (Rosiana)
No la. lol.

47. What's 8 Favourite food? (Farisha)
Not sure.

48. What kind of car does 1 have?(Sara)
Toy car (:

49. Have u travelled anyway with 9? (Yichun)
Does going to Tampines Mall count? o.o

50. If 14 have $100, what would he/she spend it on? (Chuen Heng)
Err. Stuff to help himself for O-Levels? LOL.

_______________________________________________

k, done le :D

2009-03-27T14:36:00.006+08:00

Wheeeeee~

Today received news that I have to attend a freaking stress management workshop on my birthday! @$*!£&*+$*~#&£&!!$#& D: Anw, it's just less than 2 weeks to my birthday. :D 7th April. Hee! :3 People, prepare my presents le ma? xD And shihyao, don't forget that you promised to get me a book! D: Weilin baby, I still dno when I can go out with you. :/

Anw, finally got to use the comp. Just finished editing the first batch of photos. Now uploading the rest to PB, then i'll resize them one by one. -.- I lazy download AdobeCS lei. :x Lol. But Picasa's functions sucks. =.= Nevermind. :/

~~Will probably post the pictures later.~~

~~Bye, for now.~~

[/edit] also changed my blog profile pict :/ I think I like this new sepia one a whole lot better than my previous one. Hee. :x Thinking of changing my blogskin too. But i'm lazy. xD Plus i'm kinda picky when it comes to blogskins :/

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

2009-03-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

Now helping Clarence do his essays, 'cause I had nothing better to do. -.- 2 essays down, 3 more to gooooo~ I'm lazy to continue lei :/

Today, nothing interesting happened in school. Stayed back after school with Yichun at the concourse, and did some work. -coughs- Then camwhored with Yichun at concourse for awhile. Then went off to the staircase near the Bio labs. Stayed there. Camwhored again. Hee. Then she help me tie my hair into a half-ponytail :B I have so much white hair alr! D: Agh.

Will probably edit and post the photos next time. :/ Comp lagging like toot now -.-

Gotta go sleep now, bye byeeeeeeeeeee~

2009-03-22T17:28:00.001+08:00

Now at the Tampines Ikea. Lol. I kid you not. :x Using the laptop now :x Testing :x

Bye, imma gonna surf web now :x

2009-03-20T08:13:00.008+08:00

I f-ing hate Mozilla Firefox. -.- Retarded. Zz.

Hotel for Dogs was nice. Touching. The dogs were adorable, too. My favourite's the Border Collie, think it's name is Shep. Second favourite's Jessica, the Husky. I just love Huskies. xD And and and, I didn't realise dogs know how to French with each other. O.O Now I know. Lol.

For those who want to know more about Hotel For Dogs, Here's the official movie webbie [:

[/edit] Ahh, crap. Think I'm coming down with a fever. Sorry, Yichun, can't accompany you to see Mdm Low today. ): &Still got one pig sleeping. See la, this is what happens when you sleep late 'cause of games. :3 My mother's soo gonna force me bathe with cold water if she knows that I have a fever =.= I hate cold water. Zz.

2009-03-17T17:27:00.007+08:00

Updated, happy now? -.-

Now surfing through WW2 vids on Youtube. .__.

Found a few interesting ones. Lol.

This vid made me laugh like crap, especially from the 2.15~3.57 part, i think. xD

You love me, you like her.

2009-03-15T11:16:00.005+08:00

It's like we're going through the motions, of a scripted destiny.

Procrastination, running circles in my head.
While you sit there contemplating, you wound up left for dead.
Life is what happens while you're busy making your excuses.
Another day, another casualty.
Do you understand what's going on?

Won't look back, when I say goodbye.
I'm gonna leave this mess behind me,
Gonna take what's rightfully mine tonight.
Because every wasted day becomes a wasted chance.
You're gonna wake up feeling sorry.
And 'cause life wont wait, I guess it's up to you.

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart.

Feels like I have always known you, and I swear I dreamt about you.
All those endless nights I was alone, it's like I've spent forever searching.
Now I know that it was worth it, with you it feels like I am finally home.
Falling head over heels, thought I knew how it feels.
You leave me breathless, the way you look at me.
You manage to disarm me, can't help but surrender my everything to you.

I thought I could resist you, I thought that I was strong.
Somehow you were different from what I've known, I didn't see you coming.
You took me by surprise and stole my heart before I could say no.

How 'bout me being half awake and crying
Lying on the floor and waiting for the break of day
Didn't think about that you'd tearing me apart,
At any moment in the night you could have tried to make it right.
Give me one good reason why in time i should believe in you.
You had me, you had it, everything
So close your eyes and remember all those lies.

Remember all that happened last time.

I'm going off to go clubbing in audi. Bye.

2009-03-14T15:32:00.002+08:00

I'm bored again.

Going for swimming soon. Stupid coach think she training me to become Olympic athelete meh? Zz. -.-

Becoming more and more irritable day by day. Gotta learn how to control my temper. -.- There are times when I just wanna scream and shout at everyone. I know it's wrong. It's wrong, It's wrong, It's wrong, It's wrong. But why am I still so irritable? Somebody slap me pl0x. -.- Think it's probably the effect of O-levels. Clarence keeps mentioning that I'm getting more white hairs. .__. Due to stress, or just premature aging? :x Probably stress la. I still get mistaken for being a sec1 kid even though I'm now turning 16 in less than 3 weeks. Agh.

Remember, I expect presents on 7th April! :D Wahahahahahahhahahahahahhahaa.

Gtg, bye world [:

2009-03-14T07:56:00.003+08:00

I'm bored.

Just finished bathing and pampering my darling pet in PetSociety. -.-

I'm craving for doughnuts :D (random)

Re-doing a veeerrryyyyy old quiz that was one on my blog. For fun. Later I'm going out to Bedok library to slack. Can't stand staying at home nowadays. So I just go out whenever I have the chance to. Which is not easy, 'cause my parents are so afraid of everything and everything to them is dangerous.

"Ohmygosh, just give a me a break! Going out is dangerous, staying out till after 7pm is dangerous, Going to the beach is dangerous, my friends are dangerous, everything is nothing but dangerous, even breathing is dangerous!"

Anw, back to the topic. Where was I ..? Oh yeah, the quiz. Okay, so below are 20 random facts about meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D

1. I can get veeerrryyy random and 'high', just ask any of my friends. xD

2. I love taking candid shots of everything and anything around me. Especially of my friends and someone ~~and my favourite foods~~ :D

3. I hate being restricted.

4. I don't like noisy and crowded places. Gives me a headache.

5. I may get overly emotional and too sensitive at times.

6. I used to have countless goldfishes, and two suicidal hamsters as my pets. :x

7. I used to be addicted to Anime.

8. I love reading. [:

9. I'm not one to be messed around with. My temper can be quite scary at times, if i really want it to show.

10. My weaknesses are my favourite foods and.. anything on my wishlist :x

11. I love him.

12. I'm gonna have corrective eye surgery when I'm 18-21. :x

13. I'll have no qualms about using coarse language when I'm at my limit. To heck with the saying that girls should behave properly!

14. I always have a song stuck in my head. :x

15. I think smoking is an abhorrent habit.

16. I hate chocolates. But chocolate milkshakes are an exception [:

17. I have really crazy and random dreams everytime.

18. I detest people who are indecisive.

19. I like walking in the rain (when there's no thunder/lightning, duh)

20. I love my teddy bear, which my Isaac kor gave to me. Pity we don't keep in touch anymore :/

2009-03-13T21:54:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a nice day.

Something (positive) happened at ecp.

Shall not elaborate.

This year's march holidays are gonna suck. My mother wants me to create a timetable detailing every single minute of how im gonna spend my holidays. Lame. I hate timetables. So bloody fucking restrictive. -'- Pissed off now.

2009-03-10T20:45:00.005+08:00

Pictures of you, pictures of me, hung up on the wall for all to see.

No mood to blog, so just post some pictures for the sake of posting.

These two kids are the cutest :3

Yichun having backache? -.-

Act cute nia!

My eyes are funneh -.-

Constipated faces xD

Yanjuan & Xiaoli, with Cass's head in the background ;x

The power lines went out and I am all alone,

But I don’t really care at all, not answering my phone.

All the games you played, the promises you made.

Couldn’t finish what you started, only darkness still remains.

I'd be lying if I told you losing you was something I could handle =/

2009-03-09T20:55:00.004+08:00

Now talking to my 17 year old cousin on msn. He's from Malaysia, Selangor :D The cousin that I always have pillow fights with everytime i go back to visit them xD And it's damned irritating to type in han yu pin yin while he types in chinese. Cause apparently, his english sucks -.-ll

I'm a Porsche 911!

You have a classic style, but you're up-to-date with the latest technology. You're ambitious, competitive, and you love to win. Performance, precision, and prestige - you're one of the elite,and you know it.

Oh yeah, I ROCK! WAHAHAHAHA.

2009-03-09T20:27:00.002+08:00

Random post ahead. I'm bored.

BELLA AND EDWARD ARE LIKE, THE HORNIEST COUPLE IN HISTORY!

I have come to this deduction/conclusion because,

Firstly, Edward and Bella can't seem to stop kissing and caressing each other. (for more explicit explanations, refer to Eclipse and Breaking Dawn)

Secondly, during their honeymoon in Breaking Dawn, they can't stop having sex with each other. And so, Bella got pregnant because Edward didn't bother to use contraception 'cause he probably thought that since he's "dead", his reproductive system is "dead" too. But turns out, he was soooo wrong. Aha.

And thirdly, I think Bella's the hornier of both of them. Cause she kept trying to ask Edward for sex. -.- At least Edward had the sense to say no. LOLOL :x

2009-03-08T18:55:00.001+08:00

PLEASE LA SARA

no proof, no talk :D

2009-03-08T18:48:00.003+08:00

Sara is a horny woman who wanted to give me a crash course on sex positions [:

But i rejected her offer.

Aww, so sad. I'm so sorry ;D

2009-03-08T17:33:00.005+08:00

Cannot touch, cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss,
Cannot have each other

Must be strong, and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one walk away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel,
Must pretend it's over

Must be brave, and we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one walk away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
How can I not love you?

Must be brave, and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one walk away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not love you when you are gone?

2009-03-08T17:00:00.003+08:00

I'm bored. -.-
Sorry Huijuan ><

Trying to find two freaking songs to download. -.- I'm anti-LimeWire now. [:

2009-03-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

Agh. Blogging seem to be the only way for me to calm down nowadays. Sometimes I just type out one whole long long long post to vent then, and then leave it on my blog for about 5 secs, then pressed 'backspace' and deleted the post. I don't care, anyway. So yeah. Here's another one of those long posts. Perhaps I'll delete this post. Depends on my mood. Ha.

Just went to Nerissa's blog and saw her post that she posted for me. Thanks, sweetheart. [: I guess she's right. No one said relationships were easy. No one said that they wouldn't hurt. No one said that every relationship would have a happy ending. If not, we'd be living the ultimate utopia now. Anyway, i've decided not to get back with him. Like Cassalyn said, I have to be strong without him. Like Sara and Jessilyn said, he isn't worth it. I'm probably repeating this so many fucking times to myself. But I needa drill it into my head. Give me some time, bear with me. I'll survive this hurricane, unscathed. I swear it. Okay, maybe not totally unscathed, but mostly unscathed. :x Sorry Sara and Huijuan, that you have to listen to my constant whining. And Nerissa too, sorry that I have to keep talking to you about him. And to my "best friend" Shihyao, thanks for talking crap to me at times! [: And yeah, I'll TRY to listen to more happy songs instead of emo songs now. But no promises, though. Aha. :x And kudos to Yichun to, for talking to me whenever I'm feeling emo. ._.

Tell me what's gonna be this time.
Save it, I was just a fool to belive you were mine.
Could not imagine life without you by my side,
And it's killing my heart,
Cause I wish I knew why.

You said it was gonna be for real this time.
You said you were gonna make it up to me,
and everything will be fine.
Never thought that I would have to let you go this way
Should have followed my heart
But I fell for the game.

2009-03-06T19:43:00.003+08:00

Me thinks I look like a twit. -.-

Went for snow-ice with Kimberly, Sara, Huijuan and her two other friends. -coughs- My snow-ice was nice [: The others kept teasing me, mercilessly. -.- Idiots. Lols. Then went back early for A-Maths remedial.

I was bored ._.

2009-03-05T20:24:00.007+08:00

Imma gonna blog about my friends today! :D influenced and inspired by Kimmy, who also blogged about me ;P

(not in any particular order..)

Kimberly : A crazy maniac. -.- Gets really wild and random ideas. Loves making up random tunes and lyrics. ;P One of my best buds in BNSS. [: And kimmy, i do cherish you, BUT I DEFINITELY DO NOT WORSHIP YOU -.- imma free-thinker hor :x

Sara : MY DARLING NU`ER! Thanks for putting up with my eccentric behaviour since goodness-knows-when :x and being there for me time and time again, to listen to my constant whining whenever I have troubles/problems. I love you lots. Wahahaha. AND YAY, SNOW-ICE TOMORROW! :3 i'm starting to feel hungry alr xD

Evelyn : Hello ikan-bilis O-O" Lols. She's been my close friend since sec1, and I do hope that our friendship will still last even after we graduate. {: Stay cute, yeah? ;D Love you. Heee. :x

Rosiana : AHA, ROSI-POSIEEEEEE. :B She's a kuku Twilight fanatic. LOLOL. Keeps chanting over and over again, "I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN, OMGOSH HE'S SO HOT/COOL", blablabla. :x But I still prefer James. Heee. ;D

The other close friends I have are..

- Shihyao

- Huijuan

- Weilin

- Lixin

- Jessilyn (annoying at times, but whatever ;D)

- Qianping

- Yichun (recently became close)

- ChuenHeng

Yeah I think that's about all. Lols. 'Kayes, I'm off to do my argumentative essay already. I totally forgot about it till Chee Eng smsed me and asked whether needa do planning for it. -.- Anw, bye penguins! :B

PS: i love my new grey hoody :D

ღ/

I stare up at the stars,

I wonder just where you are.

You feel a million miles away

2009-03-02T20:36:00.001+08:00

I study like a maniac in a desperate attempt to forget all my troubles.

I walk in the rain, hoping to get struck by lightning to get rid of all my problems.

2009-03-02T19:36:00.006+08:00

Boring post ahead xD

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Today Ms Rahma actually praised me in class O-O" Said that my maths finally improving. -.- Lols. Anyway, went to Techview Cafe today after school with Sara, Huijuan, Evelyn and Kimberly [: Then after eating, went to POA remedial with Huijuan. Mrs Chan took one whole hour to go through one whole question. -_-! And I was smsing Shihyao thoughout the whole remedial xD

After remedial, went to the block opposite school with Huijuan to do POA homework. Do halfway, then gave up :x But at least I did it halfway. :x Talked to Huijuan and her friend(s) while waiting for Sara to finish her Netball practice. Then after that, went home, and got drenched in the rain. -.- Bathed and now i'm blogging. :x

The last time when I got drenched in the rain was while walking home with you, after my choir camp. You gave me your jacket, and then walked me home. I still remember that day clearly. As I walked in the rain, I started thinking about all the 'could have been's, 'would have been's and 'should have been's. And then I started crying.

ღ I remembered when we kissed, I still feel it on my lips.

2009-03-01T20:55:00.003+08:00

Just finished revising and making notes for Sec3 SS topics. Studied SriLanka&Ireland and Deterrence&Diplomacy. Now my eyes hurt like crap. -.- Gonna make notes for and study Governance later [: Transport policies and stuff are so freaking confusing. Zz. -.- And yay, tomorrow having PE, needa run around the school. -.- Hope I don't get a stitch while running.

And ohyea, yesterday, while swimming, I felt like dying after my fourteenth lap. -.- No stamina. Lols. So I just slowed down in the middle of the lane. Then there's this skinny guy swimming behind me. Then he say, "Oi little girl, swim faster leh". Then I turn around and glared at him, "Then you swim in front of me lah!" He smiled at me and said, "No, ladies first" Then I jusT rolled my eyes and said, "I tired whad. So what?" Then he say, "you're blocking me." Then i said, "YOU GO SWIM IN FRONT OF ME LAH." Then he say, "Just swim lah." Then I became duper pissed (I was in a bad mood then) and gave him that 'has-anyone-ever-told-you-before-that-you're-a-bastard' look and started swimming again, and purposely kicked harder to splash more water. And then I heard him curse. Aha. Huge sense of satisfaction. xD

2009-03-01T08:30:00.002+08:00

I think I forgot to tell Mr Lau my new tempo number so that he can contact me if I'm in the for IT competition -.- Btw, most of the song lyrics in my blog, I edited them. If I did post the full song, i'll include the title. [:

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

I can't forget how we used to be
All the times we spent together
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new guy has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question

Does he know exactly what to say to make me happy again
Show up on my doorstep when I least expected him to
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say, "I call you because I miss you, cannot ah?"
Like you used to

2009-02-28T15:29:00.000+08:00

Belated kudos to Huijuan and Sara and Kimberly for helping me to get a spare phone and a SIM card :D

I LOVE YOU GUYS! Wahahahaha.

2009-02-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

Sara, i don't have any ss of you and me -.- So i only added in one. :x Sorry ah :x

2009-02-26T22:22:00.004+08:00

Songs by Yiruma are soothing. They placate and clam down my frayed nerves. Exactly what I need, especially for my current msn conversation with Nerissa the Chocolate IceCream.

Some quiz results from QuizGalaxy.com

What did your name mean in the ancient times?

1. Xinyi [adjective] - violent

2. Christy [verb] - to start your own country

3. (given by Lixin) Elizabeth [adjective] - righteous

omgosh, that means i'm destinied to be a dictator if i was living in the ancient times? xD

How will you be defined in the dictionary?

1. Xinyi [noun] - a person who makes a living by suing celebrities (wdf?!)

2. Christy [noun] - a person who makes a living by suing celebrities (... zz.)

3. Elizabeth [noun] - an immortal (YES, FINALLY, A DECENT ANSWER!)

What is your perfect guy/girl comprised of?

Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

2009-02-26T21:33:00.004+08:00

Aghhhh.

ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyou

i'm disgusted and despise, detest, abhor, loathe, scorn, disdain you.

~~but iloveyou.~~

And baby, I'd very much like to kick your balls hard and make you impotent for all that you've done to me. But i'll never be able to do that. Cause I can't bear to. Now i totally get Sara's point of view, when she got so hung up over Des even though they've broken up and he's hurt her so many times..

2009-02-23T21:54:00.001+08:00

WHY THE FUCK IS COPPER (ll) CARBONATE GREEN AND NOT BLUE ?!

2009-02-21T22:24:00.003+08:00

To clarence : I admit that I lied to you, but i've always given you a perfectly logical reason and explained everything to you, haven't I. But you, kept it from me. I suspected it, I even asked you several times, and purposely brought up the subject over our phone calls and in our smses. Yet you fervently denied it every single fucking time. You said that you 'loved' me. That proves that it's all in the past now. And we broke up before Valentine's Day, you fucktard, on 11th Feb. You said that you stopped smsing her after Valentine's Day. That just proves that you have been smsing her all throughout our relationship, haven't you? -.- I wanted to trust you, but you keep making things difficult for me. I'm not stupid, i noticed in almost everything that you do and say, you still can't get her outta your head. It became painfully obvious to me from December '08 to early January '09. You remember the way she touches you, the way she kisses you, the exact words she used to say to you. And puh-leazeee, you even compared the way she and I kissed, and told me your verdict. For pete's sake, which decent guy does that? It's useless trying to deny it now. But at least now I know that you've never really loved me wholeheartedly. And I rather get killed by the truth than to get hurt by the lies.

To weilin : Thanks babe, for sticking up for me. I love you, always. Ahaha. :x

To shihyao : Hey, gay! [: Thanks for all those times you comforted me and listened to my mindless and senseless ranting whenever I'm going through a rough patch in my relationship with Clarence. I owe you one, actually, many, many 'one's. ._. The next time you have a girlfriend, and if you ever need a listening ear, I'll be there for you, best friend! :D

2009-02-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling damned pissed now. Because YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME. You told me that you didn't talk to her. You promised me that you wouldn't stray. I almost forgave you when you told me that you still haven't forgotten her, 'cause I thought that, since at least you told me, i should just give you a second chance. But no, never again. I've had enough of your lies. You probably really loved me once. But still. I don't know what the fucking hell is wrong with you. My friends were right. Wan Hui, Sara, and my other friends were was right. I'm stupid, naive, foolish, and an absolute idiot for getting hung up over you for nothing. Yichun told me that there'll always be other guys in future. Nerissa said that once I start having so much fun without you and stop thinking about you, I'll soon realise that I don't even need you anymore. It's true, actually. I know i'm being kinda heartless by saying all these things. And that you'll probably break down and cry or something. But i'm just being realistic, i guess. That time when you called my house, and I heard you crying, I wanted to tell you that everything's fine, that I still love you and nothing would change that fact, even though due to circumstances, we can't be together, and that there's still a chance for us, after my exams. Now i realise that I was nothing but some kinda of stupid fool and a replacement for her. I won't be toyed with anymore. What the anonymous person said was right, you were never worth it. I won't be guilted by your tears anymore.

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me

Your arms around me tight

Everything, it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright

For once in my life

Now all that's left of me

Is what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

Swallow me then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Seeing you it kills me now

No, I don't cry on the outside

Anymore.

The lyrics in bold, i can totally relate to them.

Lately I've been thinking 'bout what i can do

I've been stressing to fall back in love with you

I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through

But I can't go on this way

I've got to stop it babe

You've been wonderful in all that you can be

But it hurts when you say that you understand me

So believe me, I am sorry

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I love

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to be the one I spend the rest of my life with

I wanted you to be my one and only

I wanted you to be my first and last

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door

Trying to take us back to where we were before

But I'm done I just can't do this anymore

Cause we can't be mended

So let's stop pretending now

We've been walking round in circles for some time

And I think we should head for the finish line

So believe me, I'm really sorry

I'm so sorry baby but

I've got to pack up and leave but

I'll always remember how we came close to be

And what I wanted to be

I wanted you baby

I wanted, I wanted you, I really did.

See those lyrics in bold, espcailly the '-ed' part? That symbolizes the past tense, if you haven't noticed. I know this is a cruel song, about losing your feelings for the one you really love, or rather, loved. But still. Those are my exact feelings too. And I added in some extra stuff and edited them.

I still have lots of lyrics to post to show my feelings. But I think i'll list out the songs which I can relate to instead.

- White Horse by Taylor Swift

- You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift

- Over You by Chris Daughtry

- Picture to Burn by Taylor Swift

- Fall by Ina

- Let Me Let Go by Faith Hill

- Now You Tell Me by Jordin Sparks

And many more, actually. But i'm lazy to list them out.

Go check out the lyrics yourself if you want to. I know I'm being heartless and cold. But this is reality.. and even though I tried so hard, but I just can't believe you anymore. I'm so sorry. But this is goodbye. I won't get hung up over you anymore. I promise.

2009-02-17T21:25:00.009+08:00

Whee, i bought a reeeeally nice BLUEEEE shirt last sunday. :B Btw, I look damned weird with bangs. -.- And now my hair's like.. short? ._. Forgot to update on Sunday that I went to the salon. :x At least my fringe will look better in like.. one month's time when it grows longer. :D 1 freaking month, 30 freaking days, 720 freaking hours, 43200 freaking minutes, and idk how many freaking seconds. -.-

~~Will probably update the picture of my new shirt, when I get my hands on my dad's phone to take a pict of it. :x Or maybe not. Hee. x.x See how first :D~~ I too lazy to post. -shrugs-

Today was freaking HOT HOT HOT. Izzul and I threw grass at each other in the school field while the school was assembled for attendance taking during the evacuation exercise there. :D But he threw three times the amount of grass at me. -.- Cheaterrrr. D:

I also went to Bugis lib with Nerissa last saturday. Talked and talked and talked. Felt like crying all over again. Then my beloved long-suffering teddy got wet again that night, for the sixth time in a row, i think. That sucks. ): I'm so sorry, my beloved bear. Anyway, NERISSA, YOU PROMISED ME THAT YOU'LL BRING ME TO YOUR PROMM! I'll be looking forward to it. :D But now, i'll have to start saving up. $100 per tix, plus I'll still have to spend extra on my clothes and accessories and stuff. Freaking hell.. T-T But still, it'll probably be worth it. I'm not telling why I think it'll be worthwhile to spend so much time and effort. Heeeee. ;D

♥/

I can honestly say you've been on my mind

Since I woke up today

I look at your photograph all the time

These memories come back to life, and I don't mind

I remember when we kissed, I still feel it on my lips

The time that you danced with me, with no music playing

I remember those simple things

I remember 'til I cry

But the one thing I wish I'd forget

The memory I wanna forget

Is saying goodbye

2009-02-14T07:21:00.002+08:00

Today's Valentine's Day. And I just can't seem to forget the times we had together.

Lost Without You - Delta Goodrem

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
You might say a little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers, never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do

I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is

I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day

I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my bed's so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no, I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do

I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is

I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day

I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you

I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye, don't know what I'd do

I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

Like We've Never Loved At All - Faith Hill ft. Tim Mcgraw

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friends
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still livin' with your goodbye
And you're just goin' on with your life

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, I hear you're doin' fine
Seems like you're doin' well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

Did you forget the magic, ohh
Did you forget the passion
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

2009-02-13T16:06:00.004+08:00

We got the same friends
We're gonna have to see each other eventually
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that
My CD's are at your place
And you know I'm gonna have to pick 'em up
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that

Even though it was mutual, it still kills inside
'Cause for so long, how I've been defined

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?

I still have your old shirt
You know the one I said I'd thrown away?
I put it on when I went to bed last night
Baby, is this where our story ends
When I turn out the light
Fantasy and reality fight

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?

Someone wake me up

Even though it's over now, it still kills inside
'Cause for so long you have been my life

Oh, baby you were my first time
I will always keep you inside

Changing blogskin soon, i think. Depends on when I can use my computer. Had History WarInEurope test. Did some last-minute studying for the League of Nations, and it really came out as the first question. "How was the League of Nations ineffective?" -.- Zz. In the end, I forgot practically all the factors for it. Oh well. Second question : "Do you agree that Hitler's aggressive foreign policy was the main reason for the outbreak of WW2? Explain your answer." And I forgot how to elaborate on the third factor, which I wrote as the Nazi-Soviet Pact (i think, can't really remember). I'll probably fail. BUTTTT, I MUST THINK POSITIVE! (influenced by Adam Khoo workshop -.-) So, I'll be hoping for a borderline pass. Hey, at least it's a pass, right? :x

After school went to eat with Kimberly, Evelyn and Sara. Eve and Kim kept trying to take my the cockles from my noodles. -.- And when I fed Kim one cockle, Eve was like, "walao, you feed her but never feed me?" LOLOL. :x Listened to songs on Eve's phone. Cause, my friggin' phone got confiscated. I NEEEEEDD MY PHONE BACK, I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MY EMO SONGSSSSS. T-T

Then went back to school, walked around with Sara, listening to songs again. YAY, EMO SONGS! Then i was like, asking Sara, "Do you have a song in your phone about the girl being forced to break up with the boy?" LOLOL. Eventually we sat down somewhere near the DnT block. Talked, and felt like crying all over again. Then Sara went for her tuition and I went back home.

PS : Thanks for the hugs today, Eve and Huijuan :D

2009-02-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

MY PARENTS CONFISCATED MY PHONE.

Won't be getting it back till after MYE. But i have to score 3 bloody distinctions for them before I can get my phone back. 4 distinctions to change into the Starhub student plan. Fishballs.

Thank you,

Sara, Yichun, Qianping, ChuenHeng, Liploon and Kimberly

and many others for comforting me.

Kimberly and I talked about parents today in music room after Sara has left. Oh yea, and I took some kinda personality test from a book that Kimmy borrowed. Actually, both Sara and I did. And our personality colour is.. GREEN , lolol :x Will update more about the Green's personality next time. :B Bye penguins. AND I WANT MY PHONEEEE BACKKKKKKK! D:

2009-02-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

It's over. I'm sorry, I had to do this. But i told myself that it'll be unfair to you. I still love you.

♥/

I'm gonna hold you for the last time

I'm gonna cry but I try not to let it show

This is the hardest way to say goodbye

Cause as you walk away I'm feeling so alone

2009-02-06T16:32:00.004+08:00

It's been around 3 weeks since I last saw you ):

And i miss you so.

School was.. kinda okay today. At least I didn't get picked on by Llama today ._. Anyway, I forgot to hand up my POA homework to Mrs Chan, sheitzxzxzxzxxx~! -.- Nevermind. I'll try to complete 'em by tonight. And that reminds me, I still have to do my Chemistry summary sheet, Organic Chem mindmap, Chinese compo, History essay, and A-Maths homework. Agh. Fishballs. Talked to Mr Saiful today during Humanities 'cause Mdm Nurmah didn't come today. :D! Talked about Poly courses and admissions and stuff, and also a little bit about MI and JCs. Now i'm seriously reconsidering aiming for the CPEE course at NP and the Psychology courses at TP. ._. Cause..

Cons

- Hard to find a job.

- Not easy to get a degree in Psy.

- Career options are limited.

- If i'm planning to specalise in Psy, i'll have to get a doctorate. -.-

Pros

- Interesting to study

- Starting pay for Psy careers are kinda high xD $_$

So.. the PROS are outnumbered by the CONS, lol. Maybe I'll decide next time. -shrugs-

_______________________________________________

Second post of the day.

It's raining now. And when it rains, I keep thinking about emo stuff. -.- But when it rains, I start relax, and not get so tensed up, like i always do. I have no idea why.

I still remember a warm-up song that we used to sing in the Choir.

I like the flowers,

I like the daffodils.

I like the mountains,

I like the green fields.

I like the firestones,

I like to walk alone,

doo wup-puh doo, wah-puh doo, wup-puh doo,

doooo~

2009-02-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

Sorry to those who had to read the long emo post ><

And now, i shall post the lyrics of the song, Hey Stephen, that never fails to cheer me up. 8D It's the one and only song that can cheer me up, anyway. Love Story by Taylor Swift doesn't work for me. ._.

Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving
But I know I saw a light in you
And as we walked we were talking
I didn't say half the things I wanted to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy you might have me believing
I don't always have to be alone

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I've got some things to say to you
I've seen it all so I thought
But I've never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk the way you talk the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

They're dimming the street lights, you're perfect for me
Why aren't you here tonight
I'm waiting alone now so come on and come out
And pull me near
shine, shine, shine

Hey Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well they're beautiful
But would they write a song for you?
Haha

I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

If you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself, myself
Can't help myself
I can't help myself

Ahh, this song brings back (bittersweet) memories xD Only sara knows what kind of memories. {: 'Cause I told her before. Heehee. :x

2009-02-02T19:29:00.006+08:00

Hello penguins :B

Having emaths test on thursday and amaths test on friday D: agh.

At least i'm going out to watch Bride Wars on Thursday :D

And Sara, don't worry about me, i'll be fine. [: I won't commit suicide over this kind of thing de :D

Much less having breathing difficulties. It's too trivial for me. {:

__________________________________

Say you're sorry

That face of an angel comes out

Just when you need it to

As I pace back and forth all this time

'Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on

Stupid girl

I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess

This ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood,

This is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now its too late for you and your white horse,

To come around.

Baby I was naïve,

Got lost in your eyes

I never really had a chance.

I had so many dreams about you and me.

Happy endings;

Now I know

And there you are on your knees

Begging for forgiveness,

Begging for me

Just like I always wanted,

But I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess

This aint a fairytale

Im gonna find someone, someday

Who might actually treat me well.

This is a big world,

That was a small town

There in my rearview mirror,

Disappearing now.

And it's too late for you and your white horse

Now its too late for you and your white horse

To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh

Try and catch me now

Whoa-Oh

It's too late

To catch me now.

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long, baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cause its worked each time before

You had me crawling (and crying) for you, honey
And it never would’ve gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before

Saying sorry repeatedly to me doesn't change anything. It doesn't change the fact that you've already done it. Doesn't change the fact that the damage has been done and will stay there, permanently, never to be erased. No matter what you do.. there'll still be a scar left. How would you feel if the same thing happens to you? Betrayed? Upset? Infuriated? Put yourself in my shoes and think about my feelings. You claim that virtual reality and the real reality are two different things and shouldn't be mixed up. You claim that you were just lonely, and you needed a companion, a friend to talk to. I'm so sorry to say this, but i'm allergic to bullshit. Did you realise how much it hurt me to keep your interests at heart, and to agree to whatever you are doing, just because i wanted you to be happy? I didn't wanna restrict your lifestyle and your social life just because i'll get jealous or whatsoever. Now i forgive you, but still, it hurts everytime, whenever i get reminded of it.

2009-02-01T09:29:00.006+08:00

Updates. -.- For the people who kept pestering me to update. -glare at Sara and Shihyao-

Okayyyyyyyyyy, nothing much interesting happened, actually. Mundane life, mundane me. LOL. Anyway, I WANNA WATCH BRIDE WARS! >:O No one to accompany me. So sad D: Anw, i'm broke. -.0! PLUS PLUS PLUS, i have to fork out $50 from my own pocket to pay for my compulsory subscribtion to National Geographic 'cause I don't have Edusave. WhatTheFishballs. ._. And what's worse is, I still need to set aside a small fortune to buy presents/gifts and materials to make presents/gifts for people on the upcoming VALENTINE'S DAY! Wheeee. :x But one thing is, i'll be broke through and through after 14th Feb, cause VD (Valentine's Day, not that kind of VD -.-) will most probably wipe out my savings. Agh. This sucks. Seriously. ._.

Speaking of how sucky things can get, I promised my mom that i'll score well for my MYE this year to get a new phone. ._. And if i continue to do well for Prelims, i'll get to subscribe to the StarHub student plan that comes with unlimited SMSes. So i will have to buck up. And i'll just cross my fingers and hope that she won't go back on her promises this time 'round. ._.

Also, i've been flipping through the '08 JAE booklet that BNSS gave out to graduating classes during the Meet-The-Parents session. The modules/courses that I'm interested in for polys are like.. they require sky-high COP. ==" Mostly from around 9~14. Agh. I need confidence, confidence, and more confidence (to believe that I can score well)! And also, i can't slack. Obviously. -.- Damnit. I'm also considering entering the Arts stream for several JCs, 'cause I'm thinking about giving GP a shot, despite my phobia of timetables and the rigid school systems that I'm currently experiencing now. -_-! Contradictory, no? Lol. Anyway, I gotta go study Physics now. Must.. learn.. to.. like.. all.. subjects.. -grimance-

2009-01-24T20:24:00.005+08:00

HELLO PENGUINS! :D

It's been officially decided that Sara's my Juliet and I'm her Romeo. {: It's cause we were typing out random lyrics on msn, and then..

Sara : you ass. Will you be my Romeo and I be your Juliet? : D

Xinyi : yes. ;D

Sara : LOLOL . : D

Xinyi : xD Hello Juliet, LOL.

Sara : Hi . D:

Sara : ROMEO TAKE ME SOMEWHERE WHERE WE CAN BE ALONEEEEEEE

Xinyi : COME MY HOUSE, I'M ALONE ~

Sara : LOL , AND MY DADDIE SAID TO STAY AWAY.

Sara : BUT YOU WERE EVERYTHING TO ME, I WAS BEGGING YOU PLEASE DON'T GO D:

Xinyi : NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU D:

Sara : D:

.. LOL. That was lame and retarded. xD but im too bored. So i'll be listening to emo songs which will make me even more emo. That's stupid of me, no? :x I LOVE SONGS FROM TAYLOR SWIFT AND SECONDHAND SERENADEEEE~

Now currently listening to songs which cause me to get depressed and emo. D:

1. You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift (my favourite ._.)

2. Mad by Ne-Yo

3. White Horse by Taylor Swift

4. Everywhere I Go by Katharine Mcphee

5. If I Were A Boy by Beyonce

6. Fall by Ina

7. Have You Ever by SClub 7

8. Love Story by Taylor Swift

9. Right Here Right Now by HSM3

10. The Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift

The more I listen to those songs.. the more I wanna cry. Damnit. I just can't help it..

2009-01-23T18:41:00.002+08:00

You Scored as Psychology/Sociology

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Psychology, Sociology, or related majors (e.g., Counseling, Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology, Social Work, or other social science majors. It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology and Sociology are both great minors to add to any major. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Psychology/Sociology

10o%

English/Journalism/Comm

94%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

88%

HR/ Business Management

88%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

88%

Visual&PerformingArts

88%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

88%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

81%

Education/Counseling

75%

Religion/Theology

75%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

63%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

25%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

25%

Mathematics/Statistics

2009-01-23T12:57:00.006+08:00

Yay, CNY's coming! <3

Nothing much to post about >.> My life has been nothing but homework homework and more homework and also studying these few days. x.x Thinking of dropping to Combined Sciences, but i wanna drop POA too. In a dilemma. ;/ My parents discouraged me from dropping subjects. but I really can't handle POA and Pure Physics at all. ._.

[/edit] new blogskin's up! i got sick of my usual blogskins with white backgrounds. ._. will edit more next time, and ~~also add in a playlist when i have the time to.~~ Playlist is up!

♥/

But I miss screaming and fighting

and kissing in the rain

It's 2am and I'm cursing your name

I'm so in love that I act insane

And that's the way I love you

Breakin' down and coming undone

It's a roller coaster kinda rush

And I never knew I could feel this much

And that's the way I love you

And it hurts when you say that you understand me.

2009-01-16T16:06:00.006+08:00

This is overdue, i know.

The picture was too cheesy, that's why i didn't dare to put it up.

But since this has turned into a life-threatening crisis now...

Here it is

._. my photo-editing skills ain't that bad, eh? 8D

2009-01-13T22:06:00.003+08:00

Fifteen - Taylor Swift

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before who you're gonna be
Fifteen

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tell you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin round but
In your life you'll do greater than dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found that time can heal almost anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didnt know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

La la la la la .. la la la la la .. La la la la la

You're very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through those doors.

Your Face - Taylor Swift

I heard a song tonight on the radio
Another girl sings about a boy
Just sees his face in every space in every room
And i know that if i turn around you won't be there
If i close my eyes will you be there?

I don't wanna lose your face
And i don't wanna wake one day
And not remember what time erased
And i don't wanna turn around
Coz i'm not scared
Of what love gave me and took away
And i don't wanna lose your face

I've got a picture of you in my bedroom
And i hope it never falls
And i hope i never lose that feeling
I used to get when you would call
And now i wonder to myself
Who were you and where are you?
Were you ever here at all?

I don't wanna lose your face
And i don't wanna wake one day
And not remember what time erased
And i don't wanna turn around
Coz i'm not scared
Of what love gave me and took away
And i don't wanna lose your face

That girl in the song had it so good
I wish i could close my eyes and see you
I wish the sky had your face
And the oceans had your eyes
And the sunset had your lips
And i had you

I don't wanna lose your face
And i don't wanna wake one day
And not remember what time erased
And i don't wanna turn around
Coz i'm not scared
Of what love gave me and took away
And i don't wanna lose your face

2009-01-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

Happy 2nd month (:

ily :x

☜❤☞

Can you imagine?

What could happen?
If we could have any dream
I wish this moment
Was ours to own it
And that it would never leave
Then I would thank a star
That made our wish come true (come true) oh yeah
Cause he knows that where you are
Is where I should be to

Right here, right now
I’m looking at you and my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything

Right here, I’ll promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait for some other day to be (to be)
But right now there’s you and me

If this was forever what could be better?
We already proved it was
But in 2,123 hours abandon the universe
Gonna make you everything
In our whole world change (it’s our change, yeah)
And you know that where we are
Will never be the same oh no

Right here, right now
I’m looking at you and my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything

Right here, I promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait for some other day to be (to be)
But right now there’s you and me
Oh we know its coming
And it’s coming fast
(As long when there’s you and me) (Oh yeah)
So let’s make the second last, make it last!
Right here, oh right now
Yeah, I’m looking at you and my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything

Right here, I promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait for some other day to be (to be)
But right now there’s you and me
(you and me)

Ohh you and me

2009-01-08T17:23:00.003+08:00

I sound like some kind of frog now, can only "croak" out my words. And my thraot hurts like hell whenever i drink water or eat. -.- My brother thinks that I'm voice-breaking. WHATTHEFISHBALLS. I'm not a male hor! =__= Now listening to Back At One by Brain McKnight. Been trying to download the toopid song.. but i can't seem to find it. -.-

♥/

One, you're like a dream come true

Two, jus wanna be with you

Three, boy, it's plain to see that you're the only one for me

Four, repeat steps one to three

Five, make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe our work is done, then I start back at one

So incredible, the way things work themselves out

And all emotional, once you know that its all about babe

And undesirable for us to be apart

Never would of made it very far

Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart

2009-01-04T01:04:00.000+08:00

I was bored. xD

2009-01-03T08:44:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to post about. Just posting for the sake of posting. -.- Had a sudden urge to do so, anyways.

Yesterday was the first day of school, nothing much happened. I bet that 2009 is gonna suck. -.- Because, that tooting fishball Rahma is my co-form! WTFISHBALLS. Zzz. ._.

Been feeling angry, disappointed, hurt, upset, and confused lately. I really don't know what I should do. Seems to me that I'm slowly drifting away from you. What went wrong? Because i'm not spending much time with you anymore?

Exams are coming. I want to study hard.

2009-01-01T14:06:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to watch movie with the maple peee-ple. :x Lols.

- Sara, my nu`er (Th3H0ly0ne)

- Shihyao, babyface! (BennyRoxs)

- Jeremy, Th3Qui3t0ne :x (Puremagic2)

- Clarence ali baba (MyPurelNT)

- Jonathan, the "ya lah, ya lah" guy (xiiaobaba) He came late ._.

'Kayes, anyways, watched Twilight together with them. SARA KEPT COVERING HER FACE WITH HER JACKET. Then during the movie, i was like, "OMG James is so hot!" Then Sara was like, "LOL, oi, your boyfriend sitting beside you leh!" LOLLL. Hahahs. Then after that went to the food court, and then because I had to attend to something, I left early, with Clarence ~~ali baba~~. The others, went to watch YES!Man instead. Lols. And i kept bullying Shihyao by calling him all sorts of weird nicknames. LOL.

2008-12-31T07:48:00.006+08:00

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

I'm bored. ._. MuacksMS is down. Fishballs. D:

Watched CSI Miami and Criminal Minds 3 yesterday night. THAT EPISODE OF CRIMANAL MINDS WAS DAMNED FREAKING TOOTING TOOT TOOT TOOT SCARY AND FREAKISH LA! =______= It was about a stalker who was besotted with a woman and then tracks her for over 600~700 miles when she moved house from Georgia to Maryland. Then i was like, 'WTFISHBALLS?!' -.- But yea, anyways, I think that forensic science and all those analytical investigation stuff thingy are kinda cool, even though it's freakish at times. Hehe.

Anyways, feeling kinda down today ._. Wanted to meet up with Clarence, but in the end, can't, 'cause he's having a school meeting. D:< imissyou.imissyou.imissyou. Later going over to Lili's house to get back my Chem file, and also to borrow Breaking Dawn. -.- I got tired of waiting for Shihyao to lend it to me. =_= Zz. Then after that, i may be going to watch a movie with a few friends. Planning to watch YES!Man. I'm gonna go bathe now, so, bbye all! Cyas, penguins. xD

Btw, HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE TO ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL :D

♥/

I didn't want to say I'm sorry

For breaking us apart

I didn't want to say it was my fault

Even though I knew it was

I didn't want to call you back

Cause I knew that I was wrong

Yeah, I knew I was wrong

Wanted to call

No need to fight

You know I wouldn't lie

But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

Tried to call again and get in your mailbox

Like a letter left unread

Apologies (and explanations) are often open-ended

But this one's better left unsaid

Because it wouldn't make much of a difference, anyway.

2008-12-29T19:25:00.005+08:00

I'M BACK FROM MALAYSIA!

Sorry that I didn't sms you guys that I'm back because my phone died on me -.-

Blablabla, went to stay at Desaru Golden Beach Hotel. Overall, it was fun. The best part was when I saw the stars at night. I spotted the Saggitaurus, Orion's Belt, Big Dipper, etc. I LOVE THE STARS. ): It's too bad that Singapore's night sky sucks -.- Can only spot a few stars scattered across the night sky, if i'm lucky. Damnit.

♥/

I stare up at the stars

I wonder just where you are

You feel a million miles away

2008-12-27T07:57:00.002+08:00

WILL BE IN MALAYSIA TILL MONDAY NIGHT.

Please don't sms me 'cause I most likely won't be replying your messages.

I'll miss all of you ): And Sara, don't be so emo le, can? Clarence, you ali baba skinny piglet, I MISS YOU! D: And ily :x

And, damned tooting fishballs, SCHOOL STARTS NEXT FRIDAY!!! =_____=